9.15am

31st july. Lekha hoyni kichu 10 din. Amay last saturday mane 21st july phn kirlo, kotha bollam, sunday sokale, dupureo kotha holo, raat theke hithat call reject, 10 din hoye gelo. Kono phn naai. Amr mne hoy smvoboto or new bf ke lukiye kaj ta kirechioo, sekhan theke abr jhar kheye amy bndho korlo phn kora.
Anyways, amar r kichu mone hoy na.
Amar gaan ta record hoye gache... Ebar mixing mastering kire dik, setar ekta video banate hobe...
R ha, try korbo aj theke eta ke roj lekhar.

9.37am

Ank kichu lekha hoyni byastotar karone. Ghoteche ank kichu. 16 tarik sokale hothat or msg. Phone korte bllo korlam. Pray ghanta khanek kothao holo. Oke bollam tui purono kotha ektao bolbi na amio bolbna jodi frship ta rakha jay.
Kintu somosya hcche or ei neka neka voice ta amar just sjjho hcche na. Amr boddo birokti lage. Porsu theke abar kotha bondho. Besh hoyeche ami ar ektuo miss kori na oke.

10.59pm

Ajke rothjatra... Mal khelam, keu na korlo na.. or profile khule dekhi, amy dosharop korche... Jar choritrer thik nei sei onyer  choritrer bisleshon kore, tarpor amar success dekhe joluk....
Ha ami to looser, vogoban to amy looser e pathiyeche... Amr r success koi? Nei... Ashbeo na.. amake suicide e korte hbe. O jituk, jit te chay, jituk, thik jerkm ludo khelay iccha kore here jetam. Serkm vabei jite jak... O valo thakuk... Thak re tui valo thak... Khub valo thaak.... Wish u all the very best... Ami to bara looser. Yes i am a looser...!!!

4.55pm

Praay 12 din kichu lekha hoyni...
Karon ei kodin e new kichu ar ghoteni sei ek e jibon.
Tbe ekta notun gaan likhechi "fele rekhe chole gele" gaan ta ke minimal instrumetations e arrange korechi. Record o cholche... Ajke track record hoyeche erpor upload korbo YT te.
Ekta bisoy thik korechi, ami choto khato ja hok job korbo, karon biye ami korbo na, ar jaa e maine pai tate amar ekar kono mote chole jabe.
Chintu ekta graphics er kaj diyeche korchi, photoshop e. Job er jnyoo dkchi, choto khato ja hok korbo.
In the mean time ami joto gulo parbo gaan record kore rakhbo.
Edike babar sorir tao valo ja6e na... Kidney, urine hajar somosya. Dekha jak ki hoy.

3.10pm

Gotokal stalk kore or profile khule dekhi, ekta post share koreche jekhane ekti mey likheche "se nischoi asbe ank surprise niye". Tate rply diyeche "ami 1000 adjust korleo asbe na". 1000 adjust? Just koyekta sorto mane bolechilam paris ni. Osot mal sala.
Tobe kal theke prochondo mon kharap. Eto kharap lagche vebe, je ki swapno dekhechilm r ki hoye gelo r ki hote choleche jibon ta. Dekha jak, aar 18 din samay ache haat e.

11.08pm

Amar e proticchobi. Amar deyal e, eka ekti bench e bose, sara jibon er moton. Sob hariye niswo hoye, ei e to ami.

11.07pm

Ajke kono kakur bou mara galo. Khub kharap lagchilo, sosane giye eto mon kharap lagchilo. Manus er sob kichu ek jhotkay kivabe sesh hoye jaay. Mon kharap lagchilo or jnyo o, or chobi te fb te stalk kore dekhlam, kichu ekta peyche office e, koto khusi dekhacche.
Bari thekeo ebar kaj er jonyo chap dicche.. kaj dekhbo, ami oke biye korte parini, aar krboo na, tai kaj ta korbo, ja salary debe tate amar ekar pet sara jibon chole jabe. Chaliye debo.
Vogoban amay kichui deyni, borong ja chilo tar sob tai chhiniye niyeche borabor e. Ami oke aaj o valobasi, basboo, onyo kauke biye kore chole geleo basbo, kauke biye korbo na, i have decided ami ekai thakbo, sara jibon ami ekai thakbo.